Tuesday, 25 August 2015

Something Just Dawned On Me

So something just dawned on me .......................

As some people know I'm 17 and I'm in the middle of sixth form. And this holiday has mainly consisted of me revising and doing coursework and throwing the odd bit of writing and reading and other stuff in. But mainly my life has been filled with work. But who could blame me really I mean I am in the middle of my A-Levels. And then something dawned on me, I am in the middle of my A-levels. I'm about to start year 13. In a years time I, hopefully, will be about to start university. I will be moving out to live somewhere else; WHAT THE HELL! How is that even possible. It feels like I only just left Primary School and now I'm about to start Uni. WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This all started mainly when my prospectuses started to arrive. It was cool, exciting, to be able to start looking at what could be my future. For people who don't know I'm in the middle of doing the BTEC Extended Diploma in Musical Theatre (the equivalent to three A-Levels) and English Literature and Geography. So basically I'm doing five A-Levels which is what I would been doing if I'd stayed at my old school and just done straight academic stuff (does theatre studies class as an academic subject?). I know I'm mad for doing that many, but blame my parents they want me to have a back up plan. I want to go into musical theatre and that gives me two higher education routes: drama school or uni. So my prospectuses have been arriving both and I got a but load which if you follow on instagram you would have seen a few weeks ago because I uploaded a photo of some of them. This cued a mildly scary moment of me realising that I will found where I'm going next year by this time next year and that is actually quite scary.

Also as some people it was A-level results day. Now my school is a bit weird. Not many people do their A-S' in year 12 unless they are going to drop the subject because most people to retake so it's better for people to have longer to learn the subject and take them in year 13. Hence why I didn't get any results then. But many of my friends from my old school did and a girl I go dancing with did. I've known her for years and she is the year above and also one of the smartest people that I've ever met. She sent me a text to tell me that she got three As and two A* or was it the other way around? But anyway she beat what she needed to get her unconditional offer to the uni that she wanted to go to. She deserves all that but it made realise that I need to work my arse off (mind my French) in order to ensure that I get high grades and that just sort of freaked me out. A lot.

And finally I just finished my UCAS (expect for the final uni choices) and that freaked me out today. Basically I've spent the day realising that this year is going to be the most important year of my academic life (so far) and I don't know if I'm ready for all that. I'll have to juggle exams and auditions and everything it's going to be hard.

I don't want to grow up. I mean I do but I don't. Peter Pan if you can me, please take me to never land for a few days so I can sort out of my life. Please? I really need it.

It doesn't help that the only thing that has been on my telly for the past few days is youtube with loads of 'What to take to uni' and 'Uni haul' videos so that I can start saving a bit and deciding what I actually to get and trying to get a bit of stuff off of my parents and grandparents and everything. I just sort need to know what I need to get for next year because when you think it logically my exams are in May/June time. That's what ... *counts on fingers* nine months away. I don't have long at all. And once those exams are done then there is nothing that I can do to help me get my grades. It's rather scary really. As soon as it gets to like Halloween time I will definitely start freaking out. So I know that I need to start preparing now with revision and coursework and breathing techniques. It literally feels like I'm preparing to have a child. It's the same amount of time and I suppose it's similar in a way because it does determine the rest of my life. I'm thinking too deeply about this.

Sorry about this weird, ranty post. As people can see I'm going through a tiny little crisis. Can't really call it a quarter life crisis because I'm only 17 so is what an eighth life crisis? What? Ugh who knows. I apologise though. This is a really random post that is really waffely and I needed to get this off my chest before my body decided to spontaneously combust or just implode on itself randomly.

There will probably be a few more of these styled posts coming up probably for the next year or so whilst I panic about my future and everything. So yeah, that's me done.

Bye guys.

Book Total of 2015 - 46

Sunday, 23 August 2015

Review | Allegiant, by Veronica Roth

What You Need To Know:

Title: Allegiant
Author: Veronica Roth
Number of Pages: 526
Genres: Romance, Science Fiction, Young Adult, Post Apocalyptic, Dystopian
Publisher: Harper Collins
Published: 22nd October, 2013

The Plot:

The faction-based society that Tris Prior and the rest of the people in the city have grown used to has been shattered - fractured by violent power struggles and scarred from the loss and betrayal that they have felt. But to make it worse, some else has been revealed to the people in the City. There is a world beyond the fences. Thinking that she and Tobias Eaton can find a simple new life together, free from the painful memories that the city holds.

But it appears that this new reality is even more alarming than the one they left behind. It turns out that being divergent is something to crave. Human nature is a complex thing; more complex than anyone could imagine. And through all of that, Tris has to continue making impossible decisions about courage, allegiance, sacrifice and love,

My Thoughts:

This book is a disappointment. Divergent I liked, Insurgent okay. But this was awful. I feel that in order to write this, Veronica had to rush. There are a thousand and one plot holes and all the character development went out the window. Oh and don't even get me started on the varying points of view. Every single bloody chapter switches between Tris and Tobias. Why do this? All the previous books have been told from Tris' point of view. We liked her so why the sudden change. Yes a lot of people understand why and I'm not going to spoil it for the people who have been living under a rock and have no clue what I'm talking about. But it would have been easier to just end it there instead of that crappy ending.

It took me almost two weeks to read this book and it's only 526 pages long. Usually I could read that in a week or maybe even less. It was because of the awfulness of this book that it took me so long. I knew that it was going to be bad, I've read a lot of reviews and been told by a lot of people how bad it is and they were not wrong. Maybe it's because of the hype of the series that I ended up being disappointed like the thousands of other readers. But the ending was bad. It was your typical yet not typical cheesy ending. The book was bad. After the shocking ending of Insurgent I had really high hopes but it was a real disappointment.

I really can't say much else about this book which is really annoying because I wanted to go into good detail about it; I'm trying to take reviewing more seriously and go into detail about it. But this was so bad that I can't really do anything. That makes me sad.


So if you haven't already guessed, I disliked this book a lot. It was a bad way to end the series and was actually really poorly written. That's why I'm giving it: **

Book Total of 2015: 46

Sunday, 16 August 2015

Reading Slumps

The worst thing has struck once again. Something that can kill a geeky girl such as I. It's hell to be sat in the middle of the summer holidays, with a lot of stressful work that can only be dealt with the excess of free time given to me, not being able to do one of the things that I love. Yes, I have fallen into a reading slump.

Every reader knows that voice deep inside them that ushers them to read certain things. The same voice that allows them to go to such beautiful and magnificent places that are described in the very books we adore. But it is an evil being. Just like mother nature, it will suddenly just stand up and yell, 'NOPE!'. Sometimes these dreaded slumps can last for months on end and it is a horrible thing. I don't want to be left in that same old situation where my brain is slowly destroying itself because it isn't being allowed to imagine wonderful places such as Hogwarts or the Shire.

Since I am in this very position at the moment, I have been reading the same book for over a week; forcing myself to read it. Before that, whilst I was on holiday, I couldn't finish any of the seven books I took on holiday with me when the year before I read the six I took with me and four of the ten more I bought whilst away. It's an awful feeling. Why must it hit whilst I am on holiday, why not in my chaotic school year?????

Anyway, I went slightly off topic then, since I am in this position myself I thought that maybe I should share some of my cures for getting rid of reading slumps.

Stop reading. 
I know, the one thing you want to do right now is read that book that is in front of you. But stop. You obviously don't really want to read because your brain isn't letting you. So instead, do something else. It could be anything. You could be write, binge watch something on Netflix, go outside (**gasp**), knit, eat. Do anything you want so that you're brain can go onto other things. Personally I suggest watching Walking Dead or Pretty Little Liars. The latter I got into this summer because of my slump and it is helping, slightly. 

I don't know about anyone else, but I find a great pleasure in spending an endless amount of hours stripping my bookshelves and then taking forever in deciding how you want the books to sit, what you want where. I find it really therapeutic. It lets me clear my mind, something that I plan to do later this week. 

Switch it up.
Why not try reading a new genre. I love sci-fi books, there's something about them that I love. But the last time I was in a reading slump I decided to grab a book from a genre that I could never get into (contemporary) and that has become one of my favourite books of all time. It got me out of that dreaded slump so maybe it could help someone else. 

Go back to an old favourite. 
This always helps me. Put down the book you're reading and go back to an old favourite, something that will remind you why you love to read. I am going to pick up one of my all time favourites, Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone. I know that going back to Hogwarts will help me get my brain through this evil state. 

A quick fix may help. 
Why not try picking up some tiny books, whether these are novellas or graphic novels it shouldn't matter because they will help get you out of the slump. Little words are always good when your brain decides to turn into a vegetable. 

This can go one of two ways. Either grab an audiobook and listen to someone else's dulcet tones as they read to you. Then your brain doesn't need to do anything except imagine. Or, you could put on some movie soundtracks to take you to a world you love. Something that can really get the imagination section of your brain working.   

Though I have mentioned only a few points, I think that they should help any poor unfortunate souls. like myself, who find themselves stuck in a dreaded reading slump.

But I want to know, how do you get over your reading slump?

Book Total of 2015 - 42